Since we all have stories and you already read a bit in my bio, I thought I would share a bit more about an event that changed the course of my life. I feel that it is important to share it with you, not because I am looking for pity nor to make excuses or to blame anyone, but because it can inspire and show that mistakes do not define who we are. They only serve as lessons that often take us on a different path and help us redefine who we are.
During a difficult time in my life where I felt like I was walking around like a zombie, looking down instead of up, trying to find a purpose and my raison d’être; I knew something needed to happen. I wanted to wake up and feel alive like I used to, but something was holding me back; I was holding me back. Unfortunately, instead of finding myself I took a wrong turn and let myself be influenced.
Having been in a long-term on and off relationship that led me on an emotional roller coaster, I had difficulties finding myself, my drive, my worth and move away from a relationship not meant to be. In a sort of an unconscious self sabotage, I made a bad decision that would alter the course of my life forever. That decision got me implicated with people who had different values than mine and I ended up taking part in their marijuana production operation which brought me in trouble with the law . The media has covered the legal troubles based on information released by the police, some of that information was misleading and simply erroneous. Contrary to what was made public, my relationship with one of the individuals involved was no more than a mere friendship that lasted only a few months and I naively implicated myself wanting to help a friend; facts that were confirmed by the judge assigned to my case. I have received a conditional discharge with no criminal record to which I am grateful and will never take for granted.
I have always taken complete responsibility for my lapse in judgment. I learnt firsthand how each decision that we make can often have a huge impact on our physical and mental health and on those who are close to us. So, with strength and determination, I fought my way out of that black hole and slowly built myself back up. In a way, this lesson is a blessing. It made me discover who I am and redefine myself. It made me stop trying to be who others wanted me to be and pleasing everyone. I now see that I truly was born with a resilience; a resilience that I unfortunately used to hold on to what was irrelevant in my life. A resilience that was buried so deep underneath self doubt and the fear of disappointing, underneath the need to always be available and complaisant at the cost of neglecting the most valuable person. Me. I now know to put this resilience to better use.
I discovered through this ordeal the importance of surrounding myself with people who elevate me, who bring out the best in me and to no longer accept the unacceptable. It has been a difficult journey; I must admit that there were days were I wanted to give up, but I am happy that I persevered. I found my path and a renewed passion for the kind of life I want to live. Because of this experience I am a better person, a better coach and a better trainer. We all have at one time or another faced difficult times, but with the right attitude, the support of the right people, the will to be better, nothing is impossible…and it is never too late.
That is why my business partner and I chose to name our business “In-Step.” All changes in life begin with one step, even when it means taking one step back to refocus. This is what our business understands and has to offer. We will work with you In-Step towards your goals and provide you with the support, encouragement and motivation to become stronger and healthier…no matter what your story is.
Emilie Paradis, Holistic Nutritionist, Health Coach & Personal Trainer
“We can’t undo a single thing we have ever done, but we can make decisions today that propel us to the life we want and towards the healing we need.” ~Steve Maraboli